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Tim by ~drippingblood:icondrippingblood:

Categories Literature > Prose > Fiction > Philosophy & Perspectives








Coming home to a bunch of fucking chaos,
"CARRIE GET IN YOUR FUCKING ROOM", my father demanded.
I hear my mother screaming for her worthless
life, should I even care?
The sound of glass breaking, bones breaking,
and screams have never sounded so good before.
- am i crazy? -
Do I really love to hear my mom getting the shit
beaten out of her? She deserves it..
Does she?
- i need to fucking cut i cant take this fucking
yelling anymore, its driving me fucking crazy. FUCK.
I wake up to the sun shining in my eyes,
I walk in to the living room seeing my father and my mother watching tv and
sitting on the couch like nothing ever happened that night.
- i see daddy fucked her so hard last night she forgot
she got a beating -


"carrie whats the matter?"
"nothing tim, why do you ask?"
"you seem fucking sad, now tell me that the fuck
is the matter."
"timmy leave me the fuck alone"
"fine then, when your crying and you need someone
dont fucking call me"


I'm making shit harder on myself, I can't let go maybe
I just need someone, a friend to talk to, I need to vent.


"carrie you know im allways here for you."
"i know timmy."
"CARRIE WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU SPEAKING TO?"
- jesus christ why the fuck does he have to yell? -
im not fucking talking to anyone allright?
"your fucking crazy I cant beileve you were born."


"why do you let him treat you like shit?"
"because hes my dad..i love him still you know..."
"how fucking sad.."
"you have your period today tim?"
"fuck you carrie!"
"no thank you, I dont fuck people that dont exist."
Timmy frowned and sat on my lap.
"carrie, if your parents died how would you feel?
"i really wouldnt care that much, why? you wanna kill them or some shit?"
I laughed.
"maybe.."
"well then tell me how"
"um, I'll get back to you on that."
I got up walked in to the bathroom and stared in the mirror.
"what do you see carrie?"
"i dont know.. whenever i look in the mirror, I see this person
that hates herself. I see a person with cut marks on her arm. I see someone
who thinks they are invisible. Whenever I look in the mirror
I see someone who misses her."
©2002-2010 ~drippingblood
:icondrippingblood:

Author's Comments

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Die Reflection Die. The last thing i say in this prose.. is from a poem. I wrote.
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quotes in bold, represent my father yelling.
- blah blah blah - represents my thoughts.
I am talking to my imaginary friend..tim..or if you dont beileve in imaginary people then i guess im talking to myself.
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This is my life, my mind, my world, my insanity and no one fucks with that.

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:iconlordmarcus:
~lordmarcus Aug 21, 2002, 8:41:15 AM
very sad. hard to comment on this one

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yippie!
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~xcarebearx Aug 21, 2002, 8:45:03 AM
god i Love your writing....
this one is marvelous
and very well thought out..
i only got confused with some of the parts..
but GREAT work anyway
Heart

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Look me in the heart
and unbreak broken,
it won't happen...
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~ioddic Aug 21, 2002, 9:10:44 AM
i agree with lordmarcus, its hard to comment on it, its good but really sad. Hug

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~produkt Aug 21, 2002, 9:25:14 AM
the classic self vs. self piece =) (Smile) . ..well written. i kinda took this more in a symbolic than literal way, however. as i said: the classic battle versus self.. well done.
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~nattle Aug 21, 2002, 1:54:58 PM
So sad, so intense. I'm sorry for all of your pain. Hug I truly hope you feel better soon and things get better for you.
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!pisschrist Aug 21, 2002, 1:56:19 PM
holy shit that was so gripping to me, i never really read much that actually has a physical effect on me liek this did. the chills in the face, and if i had hair on my back it would have stoo up =]. probably because i can relate so well. i must add this to favs.

"you have your period today tim?"
"fuck you carrie!"
"no thank you, I dont fuck people that dont exist."

"i dont know.. whenever i look in the mirror, I see this person
that hates herself. I see a person with cut marks on her arm. I see someone
who thinks they are invisible. Whenever I look in the mirror
I see someone who misses her."

great writing
:iconbroken-soul:
~broken-soul Aug 21, 2002, 2:34:40 PM
whoa thats intense.....hope u feel better soon

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Drugs are bad so lets get high,
Sex is evil,
Evil are sins,
Sins are forgiven,
So lets begin."
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~joe-schmoe Aug 21, 2002, 4:24:54 PM
great... but i don't know what to say other than that.

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~fatelessmirror Aug 21, 2002, 5:07:27 PM

Carrie is a beautiful name, unless of course you are a Carrie.

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